to have a wonderful girlfriend, the time now to do EVERYTHING i love, and to share these with the people around me.
but right now, I REALLY WANNA DAAAAANCE!!! =))))) as in gusto ko sumayaw kahit saan kahit mukha na akong tanga. I ain’t even deprived of it. =)))))
i have to lose when i gain? how come i can’t anymore? :(
hurray for dance! :) lol kahit di talaga related dun ung post. :))))
I don’t know what to do…
- to do well in school
- to still continue on the path of being the best dancer i can be
- to be an architect
- to have a purpose
My laziness amazes me beyond words. I’ve heard the warnings countless times before, and brushed them off, telling myself I could take whatever the universe would throw at me. Only now, do I see my foolishness.
For 2 years I’ve been struggling with my academics and dance. Telling myself that I could force it. That I could win. As long as I believe I can, I can keep up both. But those were the words of a dreamer, not a doer. I went about it half-assed. You can’t do that in college, especially not in a course like architecture. I was full of myself. I thought I could keep telling myself I was special, keep making myself feel special, when I’m not. You can’t be special and not back it up. You see, there are 2 types of greatness in the world. The people who are meant to be great, and the people who strive to be great. Both equally achieving the same levels of greatness, just having different means of getting there. Everyone else, just falls short of this, or don’t strive to be anything at all. I’m one of the people that used to strive. I ran out of steam.
Now, there’s a new race I have to enter, it’s one I forced myself into. In order to continue on my dream, I have to get out of this alive. I have to get rid of everything that’s holding me back. I’ve identified 2 of the things I need to get rid of, my laziness, and my arrogance. These though, are not reason for me to not know what to do. What’s ultimately bothering me right now, is my resolve. Whether or not I CAN get rid of my vices, or fall by the wayside again. I still want to balance dance and architecture. But I don’t know if I can even trust myself anymore. Right now I’ll just continue to watch dance videos online and try to finish as much as I can with my drafting tonight…